Exactly one year ago today

Exactly one year ago today, my world turned upside down! Exactly one year ago today (July 5, 2009) I found out that I was pregnant! It's amazing how so much can change in a year, and how when you think you've got your life all figured out, God throws a curve ball and surprises you beyond your wildest imagination. See, a year ago today, I remember sitting in the 1000 service at Oasis, taking notes on the message Pastor Philip Wagner was bringing on Love. I was singing on the worship team that morning, and I remember sitting in the front row, taking notes vigorously, soaking up every word. In fact, here are some great highlights from that message,

"Our ability to love comes from our connection with God"

"It's crucial to have the capacity to love and be loved"

"We love because He first loved us" 1 John 4:19

As I was taking notes, I decided to journal a bit. I don't normally do this journal while taking notes, but I felt the overwhelming need to write this down randomly in the middle of my notes, "Lord, I want what you want, you make all things beautiful in your time! You know how my heart longs for a baby.."

Mind you, at this time, I had no idea that I was already pregnant! It was a few hours later that I found out that I was pregnant (at the LAX airport bathroom while picking up my some friends...which is a whole other blog entry. I'll get into that later)

As I look back one year later, I am so amazed, blessed and stand in awe of our amazing God. He knows my hearts every desire, even the desires I don't even know I have, and He is so faithful to fulfill them!